my blog

I sat here for a while and tried to decide what I wanted to post about today. There is a lot going on in my head, but I'm not sure I want to write about any of it just yet. I think that maybe why I've had a crappy blogging week.

I'm one of those people who needs to get things straight in my head before I can explain it with others. Richard has come to realize that when I get all quiet it just means I'm trying to figure things out. I've had to learn to open up to him and let him help me deal with the questions I'm pondering. At the same time, I don't like to burden him with things that could be seen as mundane. I tend to let little things bug me when I don't have control over them. I know this isn't a good thing, but it's just the way I am.

The funny thing to me is I'm finding that my blog is the same way. When things are flowing in my life I have a lot to write about, but when I'm stuck on dealing with something or somethings in my head I feel like I have nothing to write about. Or that the things I have to write about no one would want to read. Most of the time I blog about what is on my mind or what I feel like talking about and don't usually think about what my readers would like to read (no offense). But, when I'm not feeling confident in my thoughts I start to question who would like to hear me talk about _____.

Anyway.... tomorrow is Friday so videos is what you get to see. Saturday is random thoughts (if I get them typed) plus I should have my new blog design up (hopefully)... and maybe a pic or two of the boys dressed for All Hallows Eve. Sunday scrapbook pages... yes I finally have a page again to share. Monday is Not Me Monday. So maybe, just maybe... by Tuesday I'll be more myself!