Over the years I've had a lot of, lets say challenging things, happen in my life. I don't feel like getting into many of them as it would be a really longgggg post then, but let me tell you that one of the things I've always done is step back and assess how this challenge can help me become a better person. As a teacher, I found that a lot of these experiences helped me dealing with children and parents who were dealing with a variety of issues. It was helpful to be able to relate to the difficulties of their life.
The reason that I have been reflecting upon this the last few days is now having to deal with Blake's speech issues I can better understand how parents of special needs children feel. Yes, I know that Blake's speech issue is nothing compared to children who have Austism or Down's Syndrome or even a severe learning disability. But, at the same time I do know how it feels to think that people are looking at my child and wondering why. Why is he not speaking correctly? Why is that mother speaking for her child? Why is the child using sign language? What is wrong? I know how it feels to just wish your child didn't have these issues and could "perform" at the same level as everyone else. I know how it feels to wish people wouldn't assume it is more than it is.
I realize that this challenge in our lives will make us stronger. I know it will build an even stronger bond between Blake and both Richard and I. I know it will allow Blake to become even more creative and expand his knowledge base. I know that we will celebrate even more verbal victories with Blake. I know that it is helping Colby develop his verbal skills. I know that both boys are learning and growing.
As life goes on I will continue to grow and change and know that the things that don't kill me... will make me stronger!